My Commitment to Healing

By Theresa Puskar

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Kenny Kolter (center), Christine Moses (2nd from right), and members of their drumming circle.

 

October 2016 – Kenny Kolter & Other Healing Facilitators

“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it—I will love you through that, as well. If you don’t need the medication, I will love you, too. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.” – Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

I’ve recently been given an “opportunity” to journey deeper into my personal healing practices. I believe that any physical imbalance within me is a form of dis-ease, the root of which grows from energy blockages. That being said, I caution that having this view can give the ego full reign to criticize, blame, and attack oneself for physical challenges that arise. The ego can be powerful, and often uses physical imbalance as a means to express critical and cruel emotional abuse. Recently when I shared that two friends had cancer and leukemia, fellow spiritual seekers were quick to judge them as being spiritually broken because of their illness. While perhaps not as outspoken, at times I catch myself doing the same; not only with others, but also with myself. I do a constant dance between owning and honoring the energy blocks within my body, and criticizing myself for having them. At times, while I know there is an emotional relationship between my body and psychological or spiritual issues, at other times I find myself lacking faith in the ability to heal the body through energetic, emotional, and spiritual practices.

Last month I discovered that I was experiencing imbalance in the area of my body that houses my 1st and 2nd chakras. For a couple of weeks I felt pushed and pulled between trying to heal through mind-body medicine versus western medicinal treatment. While I cannot claim I now have 100% clarity on this issue, through contemplation and connection with these areas of my body, I decided to seek support through all of the means that are offered to me.

“Music is the mediator between the spiritual and the sensual life.” – Ludwig Van Beethoven

My first healing opportunity came with the arrival of musician, metaphysical practitioner and gong aficionado, Kenny Kolter. Originally from the Midwest, Kenny comes to Chicagoland a few times each year to share his healing gift. He truly is a man who followed his passion, and in doing so has been graced with a myriad of opportunities to practice sound healing throughout the US. I’ve heard about Kenny and his gift for several years, and finally had an opportunity to experience his sound healing prowess firsthand. Best known for his gong baths, his abilities with sound frequency healing were evident. When I first heard him working with the gong and drums, I was transported to another time and place. He clearly invokes the magic of ancient shamans and sages into the room when he performs. As I immersed myself in the sounds that surrounded me, I noted how the stress in my body softened, and how, afterwards, I felt energized and inspired.

He also did a one-on-one healing session with me, and my response was most telling. Despite feeling energized during the session, afterwards I immediately went into a deep sleep for 40 minutes! My body was clearly integrating the energy healing that it received. For my final healing adventure, Kenny invited me to attend a drumming circle with his co-host, Christine Moses. This event was magical, mystical, and very cathartic. We started drumming around a warm and radiant fire, and later, as the evening’s showers began to rain down upon us, we took to the protection of the garage. We took several emotional journeys, sharing our feelings and personal anecdotes on various issues. After doing so, we then proceeded to drum through them. I had never attended such a circle, and found the emotional release to be very transformative.

I’ve also attended several other healing sessions, such as acupuncture, yoga, and the Sacred Chamber Process, and Oneness Blessing events at The Flowering Heart Center.  I also attended a Cocoa and Chanting event with Harmony (a native of Bali who is a remarkable woman, and a gifted entertainer and healer). I also sought energetic clearing with Betty Giannopoulos, who is a Chicago native, and an excellent Body Code practitioner. This healing process interfaces with the subconscious, and scans a multitude of energetic, inherited, physical, and mental issues that reside within the body. Once located and understood, the practitioner then clears them in the energy field. While I’ve never experienced Body Code healing, I was amazed at how many layers of emotional healing we exposed, and I experienced a variety of sensations while undergoing the treatments. I was impressed with Betty’s nutritional and supplemental suggestions, finding them very helpful.

I’ve been particularly dedicated to my emotional, spiritual, and physical healing for the past two months, and will soon be having an ultrasound to recheck the issues. As I take this journey towards greater wholeness, I note how I frequently catch myself having a black-or-white attitude. I see myself as somehow having to choose between being spiritually committed, OR being of this physical world. Throughout this healing period, I’ve come to realize that it doesn’t have to be one or the other. I can choose to use both energetic healing and the methods practiced in western medicine. I’ve also learned that healing does not necessarily show up in a way that meets our conscious agenda. With the hours I’ve spent meditating, contemplating, and doing the energetic work these past several months, I’ve no doubt that there’s been a substantial energetic change in my first two chakras. That being said, I still believe that surgery is necessary.

I look forward to a powerful and potent partnership between the energetic and physical healing within my body. I welcome the light of spirit to fill me, and I honor the science that is the foundation of western medicine. I’ve learned to fill myself with the deepest of gratitude and appreciation for all of my body’s wonderfully, divinely engineered parts. I thank my feet for carrying this “heavy load” for over half a century, and I praise my reproductive organs for the darling daughter that they graced me with. I thank my heart for still ticking after surviving many of life’s ups and downs, and I acknowledge my digestive system for processing all that I feed it. I’ve been truly blessed with a body that has been patient, flexible, and supportive. Thank you, sweet body, for all that you are, and everything that you do.

To learn more about Kenny Kolter, log onto gongmeditation.com; and you can call 312-498-8299 to make an appointment with Betty Giannopoulos.

 

Theresa Puskar, our All About Town contributor, is a writer, trainer, speaker, minister, and inspirational audiobook producer. She is the author of the "Terri" series, seven books for children ages five to nine that focus on a variety of important social and emotional issues. She’s also recorded a powerful experiential audio program, How to De-Clutter Your Mind and Live a Heart-Centered Life. To place an order or learn more, log onto theresapuskar.com.

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